This is going to be really long so please if you are going to say mean things about it being long don’t bother reading it.
This is where it all stared……
About Five years ago i met this guy online (AIM) we talked everyday then we started to talk on the phone. He lives in California and i live in Florida. We talked for about 2 months before deciding that we would concider ourselves a couple. We dated for over two years. We kept good to our word we never cheated and we spent most of our days talking together. I was so in love i couldnt stand not being able to hold him and feel his warmth.
Finally summer came and i was going on vacation. Every summer i spend a week in St. Augustine at a bed and breakfast and this summer i wanted him to meet me there so we could finally meet. I asked him everyday and he said he didnt know. He would just have to take off work. But finally when it came to the day he said that he couldnt go. Did he not want to go, or could he not? I asked him about it all the time and he decided that we should stop talking after 2 1/2 years he just wants to leave.
So we split……
A year later i met this guy he is amazing we have been together for almost two years, we even bought a house together. But i still cant stop thinking about my ex in California. I called him the other day i couldnt stop thinking about him. We have been texting for 3 days now. I dont know what to do i am still in love with him. but i love my boyfriend right now.
Today…..
I asked my ex in California if i could come see him this weekend i want to take a shopping trip and i wanted to see him. My mind thinks that if i get to see him i will finally know what i want. But again he said that he doesnt know, just like a couple of summers ago.
I know that i will not do exaclty what people tell me to do its up to my heart but i want peoples opinion…Please i really need help!
Thank you So much!!!
